Who are you?

The name my Master has given me is Kitten. I’m a 32 year old woman living a life of consensual servitude. I am owned. It is of my free will that I entered this arrangement. Our arrangement is called a Total Power Exchange or TPE relationship.

What is “Total Power Exchange”?
Total Power Exchange is a fully consensual 24/7 relationship where one party (the submissive or slave) gives full control of their life to another party (the Dominant or Master). In my relationship with Master, it means that I have surrendered all my personal rights and properties to him and as such own nothing. This includes signing a Power of Attorney Contract that gives him legal ability to make permanent decisions regarding my health, finances, etc.

Do you live with your Master?

Yes, I do live with my Master in his home.

Isn’t this a cop out kind of life? Are you just a weak woman who needs supporting so you enter this so called submission?

Not at all. I am a well educated capable woman. With Master’s permission, I ‘run’ a business which I continue to work at from home. I’m also in school full time pursuing a second and third degree simultaneously. I am independent and entirely capable of living on my own in the world. My Master does financially support me and any money I make becomes his for whatever use he wishes. This submission is in my heart and the life I’ve chosen is just that.. the life I’ve chosen.

What is meant by ‘defer rather than depend’

Deferring rather than depending is the way Master chooses our relationship to be structured. This means that I have a standard group of things in which I make my own decisions. These include the business I run, the order in which my day to day chores are done(to a certain degree) and such things as this. I defer to Master in most ‘categories’ of life like my appearance, my health, my time management, sleep schedules, and the people I associate with. Within those categories, Master has set guidelines for me that I live within. This means I do not have to ask him every single little thing, but only things that do not fall within the guidelines or things I’m not sure about.

In example, I am allowed to make doctor’s appointments and go to them without asking if I may make a doctors appointment. I am expected however, if it is not an emergency, to check Master’s schedule and do it at a convenient time for him.

I am allowed to choose groceries within the guidelines of the healthy things Master wishes us to eat. If I should like to make a cheesecake, then Master must wish it or it simply won’t come to pass.

I am allowed time with friends on certain standing days of the week. I do not have to ask to go to these events, only remind Master that I am going. If, however, my friends decide on another day for us to get together, I must ask to go and abide by Master’s decision. If Master decides that he wants me home, then I must stay home and have no right to say otherwise.

Some standard things I am NOT allowed to do are cut my hair, wear acrylic or fake nails, wear makeup on a daily basis, smoke, drink, or do anything that harms my body or my mind. I am not allowed to deviate from any of Masters standing orders or guidelines for me in any way. I am expected to keep proper poise, not curse excessively, and to not raise my voice or do anything disrespectful toward Master. Major Punishable Acts are blatant disrespect, failure to obey, and doing anything to harm myself directly or indirectly.

Punishment?

Yes, when I disobey or fail to do what Master wishes me to do out of a lack of trying or just plain laziness or blatantly disrespectful behavior, I am punished. Punishments are seldom physical’(i.e. spankings). The most common punishment that Master gives me is to have me write an essay on what I’ve done wrong, why I’ve done it, why it’s wrong, and why I should know better or not do it again. Also, I’m often made to write sentences numerous times and reflect on what I’ve done wrong. Example, I might be made to write the sentence ‘I will not disrespect Master’ between 100 and 1000 times as well as an essay on how I’ve disrespected him and how that reflects on me as his servant.

Other forms of punishment are not being allowed personal time, extra chores, and not being allowed to attend events in my ‘free’ time.

The WORST and most severe punishment is the removal of my collar for a specified or sometimes unspecified period of time. During this time, I am expected to work very hard and obey. All things I do must be approved, even things that are normally standard and OK. I am expected during this time to ‘earn back’ my collar and the privilege of serving my Master. Luckily, I have never had to endure this punishment.

Punishments and direct discipline make me a more well rounded person in all avenues of life and make me a better trained servant for my Master. I appreciate the punishments and see them as a road to growth and personal introspection.

What is a day like for you?

It really depends. I wake up early, around 06:30 and do the things that most people do. Feed pets, eat breakfast, walk the dogs, shower, and get dressed. I meditate, do my errands and chores, and then go to class. When I return, I begin cooking dinner for Master. When all of this is done, I handle my college work. After that, I get ready to take care of Master when he wakes up and do whatever things he wishes.

If Master has other ideas or time off work, then what I do is up to him and revolves around his desires, needs and his time constraints.

Why keep a journal and why keep it online?

I keep a journal because it’s a way for me to have an outlet to deal with my day to day activities. I keep it online because it’s easier for Master to access. Also, I keep it online because it’s a way to reach out to others who are in similar arrangements to mine, to meet other slaves and to let other women know that they have ’sisters’ out there who are also dealing with all the pleasures and challenges of being owned.

Are you happy?

Completely. I can’t think of anything or any life that would make me happier. In this life, we have a lot to give each other in the way of love and things that money can buy, but to me, offering myself to someone else completely is the best and deepest form of love. Submission in this way has changed my life and continues to change it day by day.